May 2012
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magarim asked: i love the soundtrack on your tumblr. normally music on people's pages drives me mad, but yours is so beautiful.
I’m not going to be a patient. I’m not going to lie down and let the thoughts and fears grow an unbearable level. I’m going to get the fuck up, I’m going to keep going. I’m not going to stop until I’ve beaten this.
April 2012
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Tonight, in the infinitesimal light of the stars,
The trees and the flowers...
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Things have to change
No more alcohol consumption, period.
No more tolerance of self-loathing.
I will never try to live up to anothers expectations of myself again.
I will give myself a break when I damn well feel like I need a break.
No more long silences in therapy.
I will read more, see more really great films, go for more walks, never stay inside if it’s sunny and warm, I will soak up every bit of life...
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The HSE is full of cunt
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The old lady in the bed opposite me thinks the occasional beeping fron the blood pressure monitor is a cuckoo and that only she can hear it.
I have had my chances. I have tried and tried.I have stitched life into me like...
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Does sleeping in and being late for work warrant 8 hours of fighting back tears, refusing to go on a lunch break because i dont deserve it and despising myselfwith the only comforting thought being that of death or running away…. or have I become horribly unstable again over just a period of 4 days?
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How long can I be a wall, keeping the wind off?
How long can I be
Gentling the...
– Excerpt from Three Women - Sylvia Plath
I just came home to a letter...
I have been accepted to study fashion design in Dun Laoghaire. FuckYes!
"If you think you're fat, what does that make me?"
NONONO. Stop right there….
My distorted body image applies to myself and myself alone. When I call myself fat, the word is not a scale to which everyone else is judged on. You look exactly the way you are. I’m the only one my dysmorphia transforms. Calling myself fat does not mean I see everyone above my weight as morbidly obese. The disorder doesn’t see other people, only the person who is...